Going Home

Smoke, sweat and alcohol filled the atmosphere. Many bodies danced, as some hands were thrown at the air. The dim, and almost inexistent, lights made it difficult to discern anything.

(E/c) eyes tried to distinguish that familiar chocolate hair when a purple light shined for a few seconds, without success. The woman bit her bottom lip, not wanting to think the worst.

As a new song blasted through the loudspeakers, (Name) danced to where her old friends were relaxing and laughing. Some of her former classmates from Aoba Josai had reunited after three years wanting to catch up.

Of course, Oikawa and Iwaizumi were there with her. It wasn´t as if she had lost contact with those two. (Name) met Iwaizumi from time to time since he lived in another city now. As for Oikawa, she went at the same university as him, so she talked and met with him almost every week.

If they were close at Aoba Josai, their bond grew stronger in the last three years. (Name) was Oikawa´s support. Whenever he felt down, she was there, listening him without judging. Whenever he was happy, she was there, sharing and cherishing his joy. It didn´t matter how many people came and went from his life, (Name) was always there.



“(Name), are you ok?” The woman barely heard Iwaizumi yell over the music “You were spacing out”

“Yes” she screamed in response even if their shoulders were pressed “Have you seen Tooru? I haven´t seen him in a while”

“I haven´t neither” That was his only answer but his eyes watched her inquisitively when another bright light shone. Just when she turned around he grabbed her arm “I don´t think you should look for Assikawa.” He was very aware of (Name)´s feeling for his best friend. He also have an idea what Oikawa was doing.

“Don´t worry” she smiled knowingly. How many times have they gone for the same? Too many. The (h/c) haired woman knew her heart was on the edge “I´m going to the bathroom”

As the woman sneaked between the sweaty bodies towards her destination, flashes of green, blue and pink illuminated the club. Just then, her eyes landed on a couple kissing on a couple.


That jaw


Those big eyes


That hair.


Those unmistakable chocolate locks.


A second. A minute. Two, three. (Name) stood frozen, watching that painful and mocking scene. Her mind couldn´t process it. Her heart didn´t want to believe it. It was only when she was pushed from behind that her legs started to move.

The music was loud enough to break her eardrums and yet she couldn´t hear it. She closed the door and sat on the toilet. There she broke. The (h/c) haired woman burst into tears between cold walls and toilet paper scattered on the floor.


It wasn´t supposed to be like that.


It was supposed to be a fun night.


It was supposed to be another cherished memory.


It wasn´t supposed to be like that.



She always knew Tooru and his way with women. The (e/c) eyed girl knew he was no saint but still… How much of a fool had she been? Five years. Five years spent on loving him, unconditionally, without asking anything in return. How many tears had she shed for him? How much time had she hoped that he will see her one day?

(Name) was aware that it was her fault. Not even in their graduation could she muster the courage to confess her feelings, yet she stayed by his side. The (h/c) haired woman couldn´t reproach him anything. It wasn´t as if she didn´t know where her feelings were leading her into… Was that the point of no return?

When she came out of the toilet, she looked at the mirror. Red and puffy eyes. Dark marks from her tears. Broken smile. How much effect did have Oikawa Tooru on her? (Name) washed her face as best as she could.

The (h/c) haired girl slipped once again through the crowd, without looking at that spot and searching for her friends. She recognized a spiky hair in the counter, where the music was lower.

“You´ve been missing for at least half an hour” Iwaizumi stated. Even though he had a few drinks, he still noticed her distress “What´s wrong?”

“…”

“…”

“I´ve been such a fool, haven´t I?” she broke the silence.

“Yes, you have.” Iwaizumi didn´t need any more to know what she was talking about.

“…”

“…”

“I´m giving up” (Name) stated “It doesn´t matter what I do or feel… He´s never going to see me, isn´t he?” her voice broke.

“He´s an idiot. He always has been, especially for not noticing you (Name)”

“Thanks Iwa. Your girlfriend´s really lucky to have you” She smiled. At least one of them was happy “I´m going home”

“I´ll accompany you” he said immediately

“No. You stay here and enjoy the night. It´s been a while since you have been with all the team and you aren´t going to let (g/n) alone” She reasoned “You know my apartment it isn´t too far. I will text you when I get there, I promise”

“Okay. We´ll talk tomorrow then” He knew when to not push it.





(Name) pushed the door and stepped outside, letting the cold night air refresh her. She put her coat as she sighed. Deep inside her, the (e/c) eyed girl knew that it wouldn´t be a happy ending but that didn´t stop it from hurting.

“(Name)-chan!” She didn´t turn around, not believing her bad luck “(Name)-chan, wait!” The said woman stopped, allowing the brunette to reach her.  

The moment her (e/c) eyes met his chocolate ones, she wanted to cry. His cheeks were a little bit rosy from drinking, his lips were a little bit swollen… from kissing that girl.  The worst part was that her heart didn´t care for that detail… Oikawa Tooru was the most handsome male in her eyes. `This must stop`

“Tooru, what are you doing here?” (Name) asked softly.

“Iwa-chan told me that you were going home. Why? It´s too early. Stay a little bit longer” he pleaded pouting.

“I´m tired and I didn´t want to bother anyone. Don´t worry, I´ll be fine” (Name) gave him a thin smile which didn´t get her eyes, something that escaped from Oikawa´s mind.

“I´ll acc…”

“Tooru!” the both of them turned around to see a beautiful woman approaching them. `Of course´ thought (Name) bitterly.

“I´m going Tooru. Have fun” she turned around, not wanting to be there more than necessary.



(Name) didn´t look back when he yelled his good night. He thought she didn´t hear him.
She did


Oikawa thought she was huddled against the night´s cold.
(Name) was biting her lips so hard so he couldn´t hear her pitiful sobs.


The brunette didn´t know why, but he felt that something was off. He didn´t know what, but he could feel it. Something inside him told him to go with her… yet he stayed with the other woman. `I will see her tomorrow` that was what he repeated in his mind `She is only going home`